What happens after unimaginable loss?

Shining Through is not only a memoir of grief — it is a testament to what is possible when the heart refuses to close.

After losing her teenage son, Prem, to suicide — and years earlier, her brother Gil — Soraya Saraswati found herself navigating shock, silence, and the unbearable weight of sorrow. This book is her honest account of that journey: through despair, through questioning,  searching…a spiritual memoir about suicide loss…and ultimately toward acceptance, forgiveness, and a quiet gratitude for life as it is.

From Outback Australia to Indian ashrams, Greek temples, and sacred sweat lodges, this is a journey of the soul — woven with meditation, mindfulness, surrender, and the courage to sit with what cannot be fixed. A powerful suicide loss memoir, healing, and spiritual awakening by Soraya Saraswati. For those navigating suicide grief and transformation.

More than a story of loss – A spiritual memoir about suicide loss

This book gently speaks to:

• Parents and families affected by suicide
• Those living with deep grief or unanswered questions
• Spiritual seekers walking through darkness
• Anyone longing to find peace in the midst of pain

It does not offer easy answers.

Instead, it offers presence.

Compassion.

And the possibility that even in devastation, something luminous can emerge.

A Story of Raw Truth, Compassion & Hope

Soraya shares her lived experience of navigating the raw terrain of sorrow, shock, and shame — moving through it with honesty, vulnerability, and heart. Interwoven with these intimate chapters are reflections on mindfulness, meditation, surrender, and spiritual inquiry — practices that supported her in discovering acceptance and peaceful presence.

This story:

• is a spiritual memoir about suicide loss

• speaks to the cultural silence surrounding suicide

• share a search for meaning amid heartache
• shares the eventual discovery of inner peace and ultimately gratitude

More than a memoir, Shining Through becomes a quiet companion — offering understanding and solace to those who have felt alone, overwhelmed, or unsure how to keep breathing after devastation.

It:

✔ holds space for your pain

✔ honours the reality of suffering

✔ reveals the possibility of healing

✔ and points toward inner transformation

Who This Book Is For

• Parents and families touched by suicide
• Those living with deep grief or unanswered questions
• Spiritual seekers longing for meaning beyond suffering
• Anyone seeking inner peace in the midst of life’s challenges

This is not a “grief self-help guide.” It is a memoir and companion — honest, compassionate, and illuminating — offering presence, understanding, and the possibility that even in devastation something luminous can emerge.

🌿 Order Your Copy

Available in paperback from me and Kindle eBook.

Whether for yourself or as a gift for someone walking through loss, this book is offered with sincerity and heart.

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Words from Readers

Independent reviewers have described Shining Through as:

“A courageous and beautiful offering for anyone navigating grief.”

“A raw yet deeply spiritual reflection on love, loss, and healing.”

“A powerful message on grief and healing — so honest and intensely spiritual.”

It has received multiple five-star reviews for its heartfelt honesty, spiritual depth, and compassionate insight.

🌿 Read a Sample Chapter

If you’d like to feel into the tone and depth of this work before purchasing, you’re warmly invited scroll on to read a sample chapter.

🌿 Continue the Journey

For those who feel called to go deeper into self-inquiry, meditation, and embodied healing, you are welcome to join the Awakening Hearts online community — a space for sincere seekers devoted to truth, healing, and inner discovery.

About the Author

Soraya Saraswati is a meditation teacher, trauma-informed yoga therapist, TRE facilitator, retreat leader, and founder of the Awakening Hearts Self-Inquiry Community. Her work supports others in releasing limiting patterns and discovering inner peace through presence, inquiry, and compassionate awareness.